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One Year Today

It’s been exactly one year ago to this date I started my journey that has lead me to be where & whom I am today. It’s been one year since I started the 12 week Advanced Mentoring Program with Elizabeth Peru. This course of study I can not praise enough as it really did change my life. Read this post for more details.

A year on I can not believe how much I have changed for the better. My brief for the program was met beyond my expectations. (I’ll talk more about that in tomorrow’s post) I have discovered why I am here & what my life purpose is. Everybody is so different. I can not guarantee you the same success I achieved by working with Elizabeth. I can say if you put in the effort & truly want to embrace a change in your life in the right direction lead by your Soul you may get the results you are aiming for.

It’s not just twelve weeks, finish it and then stop. The Advanced Mentoring sets you up with life skills you can live every day for the rest of your life. The course material is there for you any time you need it. I was referring to it just the other day. As we grow & expand things will take on a different meaning. Reading back my notes I could see how far I have come and how much ‘I get it now.’

I am so grateful for Elizabeth’s guidance & support over the past year. Despite completing the full Merit Mastery program now I know this is not the end of the relationship. I am out there on my own, I actually always have been as it’s me doing the work for myself. I have gained the skills to figure things out for myself more quickly and with less need for reassurance from others. I can see though as I develop further on my path I may well still need to check in from time to time for some clarity from my mentor. We never stop learning. Even if my sessions become more of a chat to share what I’m up to from a feedback for the program point of view then that’s how it shall be.

I wish all the July 29th new mentees well on their new journey. Enjoy the ride, I loved it!

Love,

Seren xx

Time to let go & move on

Good morning readers. I hope you are all keeping well in your worlds? We are flying through 2013 aren’t we, it’s July already, how did that happen? I felt like June was a bit of a breather between May’s big energies and now July’s. If you feel like you have been loosing the plot or the people around have been a bit crazy town, don’t worry you are not alone.

The current Mercury Retrograde that commenced on June 26th has been strong. For me it has given me the push I needed to step up to my own responsibilities. No more making excuses or passing blame. If something is not aligned with me any longer to who I am today then I need to deal with it. I did deal with it for sure!

This period in the planetary movements allows us to see the ‘real core’ in people/situations that goes deeper than surface appearances. Relationships have been under great scrutiny. Masks have been removed as people reveal their truth.

Just seven days ago my heart was filled with joy when this happened. An old hurt came back to be healed. The person involved presented herself to me in such a raw, beautiful light I literally melted. The mask she had been hiding behind (one I wasn’t gelling with) was gone. What was left was awesome. I thought ‘this is the person I fell in love with many years ago & I’m thrilled she is back.’ My friend spoke openly on how she has been renovating her life, facing her flaws and she physically glowed telling me what she was doing to get back on track. I listened and gave such huge gratitude that she was able to share this openly. Ahhhh happy sigh.

Let’s move onto the more gritty, dark & turbulent story. I decided to start with the happy one first. Within my life there are things and sadly people who are no longer serving me. I tend to cling to the past too much. Take a wardrobe for example. Who has ratty old singlets or t-shirts they just can’t throw out? You love them because they are safe, comfortable and reliable. They are fine for layering or wearing round the house to do the cleaning in. In fact they are worn out. They are full of holes, stained, stinky, faded and don’t fit well anymore. It’s time to retire them to make room for some new shining ones that will serve you better.

I thought up this analogy to bring some sense to a current situation. Okay it’s a bit weird to compare a friend to a ratty singlet but I am. It’s human nature that people in our lives come and go. We literally grow apart from people. We change, we move, we expand and excel. This is all done at different rates, on different time scales. Some friends can’t keep up with us. We ourselves may fall behind our friends. When this happens we no longer resonate with each other. We literally do not make sense of where each other is coming from. You meet each other with blank stares.

This is okay. It’s okay to not be okay with someone you feel is not a good fit for you anymore. It doesn’t make you a bad person. It will make you a better person for being true to your own Soul. The biggest challenge is too face up to this realization and be responsible for it. That is just what I did.

I’ll try not to get too personal on this subject I’ll keep it brief. I had a friend who no longer lifted me to the dizzy heights she used to, sad but true. We had been growing apart for a while and I didn’t want to face the fact so carried on as usual hoping we were just going through a ‘rough patch.’  Finally I needed to face facts. With the help from the universe I decided to speak my truth from the purest intent as I thought it might help us through this rough patch. Let’s say it didn’t get the reaction I had intended. The rough patch was the stepping-stone to a full on break up.

We are not responsible for other people’s reactions to our actions. What ever gets thrown back at us ‘is what it is.’ The reaction is what that person needed to do. The words we gave to get that reaction are ours to own even if they are not welcomed. Yes your words may cause a person to feel anger, hurt and betrayal. Those feelings are theirs, they created them inside of their own being. You didn’t.

I would never intentionally hurt some one. I got a shock with the reaction I received, as I mentioned earlier I spoke with pure intentions. I ended up hurting myself more with my reaction to their reaction. I retracted my truth and tried to apologise for what I’d said because I am a compassionate person. The self doubt came in & I started questioning my intent (head reaction). Then I stopped. I should not have to apologise for who I am & speaking my truth. I should have stood by my words, owned them 100%. All the doubt I felt then vanished.

Now I’m living a fully integrated life of head & heart connection daily what comes through for me is no longer ego lead. It’s hard for others to understand this. That is okay. As long as I know my intention is pure & stand by it all is well.

I realise now I needed this situation to happen, it was meant to, I got the right reaction. It was time to say goodbye. My Soul guided words had more meaning than my human brain could process. My Soul wanted me to face the fact I could no longer have this person in my life. It was hard. I went through the entire range of post break up emotions that were entirely my responsibility. Looking back this isn’t the first time this has happened to me, it won’t be the last either. But I am at peace with that.

Time for the happy ending! Now I am no longer wasting time and energy on relationships that no longer serve me I can see what relationships I need to be focusing on. Slowing myself down and having a good look around I have actually made some new friends recently. Friends who I have attracted by being the person I am right now. Therefore they are fully aligned with who I am today. I give great thanks for this and gratitude for the above situation for making room for the right people to enter my life. I can’t put new clothes in my wardrobe if its jam packed full of old outdated items can I? I’m learning life is about quality not quantity so I won’t be in a rush to fill my spaces too quickly.

My personal Mantra: “Own what I say & the doubt will go away.” 

Love Seren xx

 

 

When surgery is a positive experience

For someone who has never had any medical procedures apart from the routine one’s blood test, blood pressure etc. to have two major surgeries in one year is quite epic. The first was the removal of all four of my wisdom teeth after years of agony & British dentists refusing to take them out. On my first visit to an Australian (British trained funnily enough) dentist I was told those teeth had to go. It would be a day surgery procedure with full on general anaesthetic (my first). It went very well & I’ve not had any post surgery problems.

The second surgery came about eight months later. Since the age of 15 or 16 I had an epidermoid cyst next to my left ear. It started off as an acne pimple from which the pore must have been blocked resulting in a build up of epidermis causing the cyst. I was always aware of it but being a teenager ignored it despite people commenting on ‘what is that lump on your face?’ The cyst was not weeping or painful. It was just there. As you can see from the below photos it was quite large, how I could just ignore that I do not know. I grew my hair and kept it covered.

Over the years I Googled what it could be leading to a self-diagnosis of it being an epidermoid cyst. Looking back now it is something I should have checked out ASAP, it could have been malignant. However as it didn’t grow or change appearance I was pretty confident it was a cyst.

My journey of awakening to a Soul lead life really helped me get on top of the physical manifestation on my face. It was in a kinesiology session that I was told that the cyst was unbalancing me. The therapist who was also beauty trained took a keen interest in my cyst. She gave me an organic herbal treatment to try to see if it would reduce the size. A friend also tried crystal healing on it in a Reiki session.

Last year I came to realise that the cyst had grown at a time I was going through some super emotional things in my teenage life that I wasn’t facing up to. I wasn’t listening to what I was being told, trying to hide from hearing the worse. The result was the build up and manifestation of the cyst next to my left ear. Left being our spiritual and feminine side. My situation involved a female friend who was terminally ill.

Nothing metaphysical worked. It was time to get it sorted out. I asked my GP about a surgical removal. She said it was a very delicate area next to my ear that had some pretty important nerves attached. Confirming my diagnosis that it was an epidermoid cyst which 99% were not cancerous I was advised to leave it.

A friend who is very well connected in the surgical field took a special interest in my ‘lump.’ To the point she got me a consultation with an eye surgeon who was able to refer me to a specialist plastic surgeon. Everything happened so quickly from then. The plastic surgeon took one look at my cyst and was confident he could remove it with the help of an ENT specialist. Within two weeks I was booked in for the procedure under local anaesthetic.

It was a quite a bizarre day. Having my cyst removed after an 18-year relationship was moving. It was time for me to let go of the emotions that caused it to develop in the first place. I was ready to literally have that part of my life cut out and be gone. I was ready. Eighteen years is a long time. However it fitted perfectly with the ebb and flow of the universe. Eclipses move in eighteen-year cycles too.

I took myself to the surgery as being under local I didn’t need someone to drive me. It was strange laid on the operating table, fully awake, with the drape over my head whilst the doctors scraped and cut away the appendage. I couldn’t feel a thing. I was very confident in the surgeon’s ability and was reassured having the ENT specialist there guiding the scalpel away from my precious nerve endings. I was warned I could loose the feeling in that part of my face. It might effect my eye or mouth movement but this I was told is rare. The nurse quickly showed me my cyst once it was removed but I couldn’t see it properly.

It was all done and over with within 30 minutes. I did get to see the cyst after in the specimen bottle. It had to go to the lab to be checked so I couldn’t keep it. Gross I know, why would I want to keep it! It was fine, as predicted not malignant just a solid ball of skin crap. I took myself home & was back in work the next day.

This surgery was massive for me. I did feel so balanced afterwards & still do. I’m no longer carrying around years of denial or hurt. I was free. The healing process was amazing too. I had no problems at all. I wasn’t given any drugs just Vaseline to keep it from drying out. Once the stitches were removed I used organic rosehip oil to help the scarring. Within a few weeks there was no sign the cyst was even there. Nearly a year on all I have is a tiny white line. This was more confirmation that the time was right for the cyst to be removed. I even had my hair cut really short as I no longer need the hair to hide the cyst behind. My mentor even commented she felt I would do this and even cut my hair shorter, which I did. All part of the process of me living to my purpose and letting the true me shine.

When your mind is in the right place and your Soul is guiding you on the correct path the outcome will be nothing but positive. I am so happy I had the cyst removed. The times I was told it couldn’t be removed I can see now it wasn’t the right time for me to let go. As soon as I was ready the solution was presented to me simply and the process flowed. The universe was just waiting for me to be ready it won’t and can’t step in unless we give consent. That was given and off we went!

Love Seren xx

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Be More Random

The last week of May seriously messed me up as I explained in my hibernation post. June rolled in and the cloud lifted, just like that. Seven days made such a difference. Resting up and taking it easy did the trick. It helped immensely I had a long weekend to really rejuvenate. I’m out the other side, happy, shining and ready to go.

Digging really deep and asking lots of inner questions lead me to realise what I’ve been missing recently. Randomness! My days are like most of yours I have a job that requires me to be there from 9-5. With this structured non negotiable I need to make sure the rest of my waking hours do not fall into the same boring routine of eat, sleep, work, exercise repeat. My Soul gets very grumpy when I forget this and that rigid structure becomes all day, every day. She needs to be random!

Saturday June 1st I was random. I took myself off to an Xtend Barre class then went shopping at a mall I never go to. It was lovely. I even bumped into a friend randomly & met some new people. I could feel my Soul jumping for joy, clapping her hands saying ‘how nice is this.’ The change of space was just what I needed to freshen things up.

My other job teaching yoga is very structured too. I have regular time slots I teach because of my day job. It is mixed up on a two-week rotation (more for the students sake!). We are able to switch and swap classes when something else comes up. I have been reluctant to do switches lately, as I didn’t want to upset my balance. Oh how wrong was I and stuck in that rut. I was on plateau central and needed step off. I had to trust the universe that the balance will come if I made some changes.

Over the weekend I helped out two different teachers get covers. It was epic, getting everyone sorted out across two studios on different days and times. Resistance did kick in I was over thinking, staring at my roster looking for an answer. The answers came when I asked for some inner guidance. We fixed it everyone got the covers they needed.

What did I get out of it? Four different classes at times I never or rarely teach. I was so excited about this. New people to teach, also students I know & never get to teach would be at these classes. Mixing it up for all of us. Randomness ahoy Soul! I had to juggle the day job a bit but hey it’s no biggie. When I trust that the best solution for me will present itself & surrender control all will run smoothly.

It’s not been that easy, of course there were challenges in all of this. One class I was not sure about as it meant teaching two classes back to back on a school night. I’ve not done a b2b for ages so why not go freaking crazy balls that week.  By taking on the double I get a whole Saturday off! I’m usually out and about on Saturdays doing self-love things after teaching and buying the weekly food supply. The Saturday I switched is a blank canvas. All I need to do it throw some paint on it. How lovely.

Now I will be more aware when I’m feeling the grind of every day life that I need to mix it up. Get uncomfortable when I’m too comfortable. It’s not that hard and if it’s the right thing for me it will all come about. However, like with everything, I need to take action for myself. Trigger that spark of thought for something new and then give the universe permission to help me out in showing me the way.

Have you done something totally random recently and loved every minute of it? Please share in the comments below.

Love Seren xx

 

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